Hello Baby Girl,
Mummy has finished work now ready to have your baby sister in two weeks time! It feels so close now.
I had high blood pressure and protein in my urine on Thursday at my antenatal check up but then yesterday at the scan they said both were fine so hopefully it was a one-off and there's no problem.
It was a bit of a shambles at the scan yesterday, we were supposed to be scanned by Dr Mohajer while our consultant is on holiday, she is the consultant that would turn the baby if she doesn't turn herself before induction. We were offered a scan with the midwife Glenys but we specifically asked to see the consultant as we feel more reassured by that after what happened to you, so our consultant asked for us to be booked in with Dr Mohajer as she felt it would be good to be able to see her specifically to discuss turning baby.
When we got to the scan though it was Glenys who did it and we spoke to Dr Mohajer afterwards! Daddy was very angry as of course he worries sick same as I do over your Sister, and the midwife didn't already to have a clue what she was doing despite the fact she's supposed to be very experienced. The scan machine was shockingly bad quality so she couldn't see very well which is probably why, and as a result she measured baby's arm a couple of times before realising and trying to find her leg!
We aren't too trusting of that scan as you can imagine. She told us baby weighs about 6lb 9oz now but we can't see that being right, she was 5lb 2oz two weeks and two days ago, so I was expecting about 6lb 2oz plus a bit for the extra two days, so maybe 6lb 5oz maximum.
Anyway, whatever she weighs she was still growing well and the fluid volume and cord blood flow were fine so that's the main thing!
It was good to speak to Dr Mohajer afterwards even if she wasn't able to fully answer our questions having not done the scan. She has been turning babies in the womb for 18 years now and has done over a thousand and never had a problem. She is a firm believer of doing it gently though and not forcing it, if she was struggling to do it she would abandon it rather than force it just to get results. She travels the country teaching other consultants how to turn babies safely so that they don't force it. She said that's when there is a danger of damage being caused, by applying too much force just because you want to have a good track record of successfully turning babies.
That was reassuring to hear and good that we have an expert with the right views if we decide to go down that road.
It was also reassuring that she said she does it on Thursday afternoons and it would not be next Thursday as we're still two days of 37 weeks then and it's too early, so it would be the Thursday after when we are 37+5. This means if we had it done we would only have a day and a half to go before we are induced so there would be less time for any damage to cause a problem in the rare case that there might be damage caused.
I therefore feel much better about the prospect now and more informed to give it good thought before we have to face that decision, if we have to face that decision, she still might turn herself yet!
Dr Mohajer is going to see us next Thursday at her breech scan clinic instead of us having to see the midwives, and she can then have a good look at baby's position and the shape of my womb and sound of volume etc and give us her opinion on whether she feels it is likely baby will turn. She is wondering whether the shape of my womb our something like that is preventing her from being able to go head down, just because she seems to be most happy lying across my tummy. It will be good to get her specialist opinion about all that.
So at the moment we still don't know if a natural birth is going to be possible or if we'll need a ceasarean.
I'm resigned to a ceasarean now if that's what it takes to deliver her safely.
It's a very stressful time for Daddy and I anyway being at the end of our pregnancy after losing you at that late stage, so we could really have done without these added complications, but we're coping.
I had a lovely card from work yesterday when we went out for drinks after work to send me of on my maternity leave, and when I got home Daddy had bought me some lovely flowers and a beautiful card with the most touching message from him written in it, about it being an important day in our lives and one step closer to our happy family life we want. It was such a touching message from him that it really made me cry!
We had Chinese as a treat for our tea and I couldn't move afterwards!
Daddy has gone shooting this morning for the day with Matt on the broadwater in Towyn, so I have the day to myself to chill and pack my hospital bags! I must get those done today just in case!
I need to go and see Linda today too and I ought to go into town and get my Christmas cards for the family but we'll see, I've finished work now so I could go get them next week :) Definitely must pack my hospital bags though!
I can't believe we're two weeks away now, it feels so strange. Yesterday for my last day at work I was happy and sad and nervous and excited all at once!
I've a lot to do next week like tie up my business accounts and deliver then to my accountant and things like that to make sure I'm not under pressure to do them after the birth, and a hectic weekend next weekend, then the week after I intend to relax as much as possible and conserve my energy for the birth and the early days of life with a newborn baby!
On the Monday my friend who I met on Netmums and I are booked in to a spa for a Mum-to-be massage and will have coffee and a catch up afterwards, and on the Tuesday I have booked a cleaner to come for the day and blitz the house and do a deep clean for me ready for bringing baby home which will be lovely not having to do it myself! On the Wednesday we have our last growth scan with our consultant Dr Hodgett as she's back from her holiday then, so we'll have a good indication of baby's birth weight then only being three days before induction is planned. On the Thursday we unfortunately have a funeral at 11am for a very dear friend of ours Richard Shuker who passed away suddenly last Saturday. He and Christine held us out so much with the wedding car and marquee etc, he was such a lovely chap full of energy, we still can't believe he's gone. Daddy has been upset this week as he kept getting an urge to go and see him these last few weeks and didn't find the time, and now it's too late. You should always listen to your gut instinct eh sweetheart, or you live to regret it.
On the Thursday afternoon we may be in hospital having baby turned but we don't know if that's necessary yet or even if we'll agree to it.
On the Friday I guess we had better put the Christmas tree up ready for bringing her home! Friday was supposed to be a day of rest and an early night before we go in on the Saturday morning, but we can't really put the tree up on the Thursday now so it'll have to be Friday, and then on the Friday night at 6pm it might be my works Christmas meal if they can change the booking from 12th (as Emily is away) so I might be going along to that! I'll only be eating though and will then come home so should be done by 9pm and able to go straight to bed ready for the morning if my bags are packed and ready.
That doesn't actually look like a very quiet week does it!!
I guess the more I get done and out the way this weekend and next week the more I can relax in between all those plans the week after, so on that note I had better get out of bed and tackling the day!
I can't think of anything else to tell you now anyway, I think I've told you everything and brought you up to date.
Mummy loves you very very much as always Baby Girl, never forget that will you, no matter how busy I might be at times you are always in my thoughts.
I love you to the moon and back again a million times over xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx