Hi Baby Girl,
Mummy has had a very difficult week this week, watching people I love go through agony, but I know you have been with me and getting me through it. I hope you are paying visits to them too.
I picked your big Sister up from Nanny and Granddad's tonight, we had tea there and didn't get home until 10pm! We spent a few minutes sitting in the car looking up at all the stars as it was clear when we got home, and we were talking about maybe going to the Kielder Observatory on your birthday to see if we can see your star. We think it would be lovely to do that, but it is very dependent on the weather so we may not yet as if we plan to do that and it is cloudy then we won't end up doing anything for your birthday and that's no good! We'll see.
I'm just packing parcels up now from my sales today so that I can drop them at the Post Office on the way to the hairdressers in the morning and not have to come home and do them afterwards. It's been a busy day for sales and this weekend is supposed to be the busiest of the year. I don't know what we are doing tomorrow yet but Daddy won't be home until later in the afternoon so Faye and I have a day on our own, so I would like to do something nice with her.
Maybe we will go out somewhere nice, or maybe we could do some baking or something like that, or perhaps make Daddy a nice special tea together if I can think of something that can be made during the day and cooked later. We could make a crumble or something for pudding instead if I can't think of anything.
I wish I could do something like that with you in the years to come, we are going to miss out on all these things aren't we sweetheart.
People have been talking a lot about Christmas at work this week, it's coming whether I like it or not isn't it. I wish it would just go away, usually I absolutely love Christmas but this year I want it to pass me by with as little fuss as possible, I don't feel like it can be Christmas if you are not here.
I am really missing you Baby Girl, I can't believe five weeks tomorrow would have been your first birthday, this year feels like it has flown by yet lasted a whole decade all at once.
I love you my sweet Angel, I always will, no matter how many Christmases and birthdays go by xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx