Hello Baby Girl,
Mummy has had ever such a busy week!
I've been up to my old house this week to do some painting and repairs to get it rented, which has been three days of hard work but it was worth it as there is now an application in for a lady to rent it with her two children, yayyy!
I got home last night and unloaded all the decorating things and tools from the car, and then loaded it back up again with all my things for the market today. Then I had to get up early and do the market all on my own today, which was hard work setting up and packing up without Daddy's help to at least go and get the car for me from across town, but I managed and I'm home again now.
The car is unloaded again (and loaded back up with my riding gear for the morning!) and all my sales for the week are processed ready to post first thing, so Mummy is going to get straight in bed now!!
We have Faye this weekend and it's her birthday weekend with us as she turns 10 next Thursday. She's getting very big now, she's a BIG big Sister!!
Nanny is going to come to our house for the weekend with her too, and we are all going to watch Nanny in Come Dine with Me! Mummy is looking forward to seeing them both, but I'm also looking forward to relaxing a little tomorrow night and Sunday too.
I start a new job on Monday four days a week at an Estate Agents in Shrewsbury. It'll be hard to begin with giving up my flexibility that I have at the moment, but I am looking forward to getting out of the house and having company during the day, I think it'll do me a lot of good as I get very lonely at home on my own since you went away. I'm looking forward to having more of a routine too, as at the moment my weekends merge into my weeks, so I think I will enjoy my time off more.
I remember whilst I was carrying you I was never ever lonely, whenever Daddy was out or even when he was away fishing for a week (like he is now) I always had you with me, and when I got into an empty bed at night you would give me a little kick to let me know you were there, followed by lots of big kicks and somersaults (or should that be summersaults?!) as you always woke up at bedtime!
I miss those days. I was blissfully unaware of what heartache lay ahead and so so happy with you in my tummy! I loved my bump to bits!!
But those days are gone and not likely to return any time soon, and you're gone too. And I miss you.
I found this quote the other day, I thought it was quite nice ...
"Because someone we love is in Heaven, there's a little bit of Heaven in our home."
I don't know whether I agree with it just yet, but it's nice all the same.
I came across a beautiful bright wallpaper the other day which reminded me of you too! It had a white background and a lovely small print of poppies all over it, with lots and lots of different coloured butterflies fluttering amongst them! It was so bright and summery! I thought it would be perfect for the two corner walls in our kitchen, and would really brighten our home and make me think of you cheerfully whenever I walk past it, I will have to show it to Daddy and see what he thinks.
It was Pregnancy and Baby Loss Awareness Day on Tuesday and Shropshire Sands and another organisation were gathering in the Quarry in Shrewsbury that night for every Mummy and Daddy who have lost their baby to light a candle together at 7pm for an hour, to create a 'Wave of Light'. I wanted to go along to that but I was in Lancashire. I light a candle on here for you every week though so I know that you know I haven't forgotten you just because I couldn't attend and light a candle then, as much as really would have loved to.
Mummy is going to get in bed and cuddle you now, even if it is only 8pm, I'm very very tired!
I love you with all my heart Baby Girl xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx