Lit by Mummy, Daddy, Faye, Ruby & Emma-Rae xxxxx 4th January 2023
Happy 10th Birthday in Heaven Little Angel, my beautiful Baby Girl ❤️
A decade. 10 whole years of loving you. Of missing you. Of life going on without you and wishing you were here. Ten years. Where did that time go?
In that decade I married your Daddy, I gave birth to your two little Sisters, I lost your four other siblings, I made a beautiful network of the most amazing friends who are like family to me, I suffered a brain trauma and thought for a short time I might have been coming home to you sooner than planned, I survived and eventually recovered, unfortunately your Daddy and I separated, I started a new career writing for a living and doing what I always wanted to do, I learnt to single parent and juggle work and homelife on my own, I found myself again, and then eventually I returned to my soulmate.
An awful lot has happened in those ten years. Yet it still seems like yesterday that I heard the words no Mother should ever hear.
I hope that as you watch over me you are proud of what I have achieved in life so far sweetheart, and of where I am today. I still have much work to do, not least on myself in dealing with your death properly, and I have booked into counselling to help me to finally deal with all that, but I have growth in other areas still to accomplish and I'm making it happen, one step at a time. I believe in myself again now, and I trust myself. I am in a good place and surrounded by so much love. I only wish you could be here with me too. And I just hope that you are watching and are proud.
I hope whatever you are doing up there you are happy. We all miss you, even your little Sisters who never had the chance to meet you talk about you all the time and wish they could have done. They can't spend the day with Mummy tomorrow sadly as they are back to school, but Faye is here and will be coming to the Butterfly Journey with me 🦋💛 And we'll all go out for your birthday tea later on, maybe even Daddy.
Happy birthday sweetheart, you are loved so very much and never forgotten, not a day goes by that I don't think of you.
All my love always Baby Girl, love Mummy xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx