Hi Baby Girl,
Mummy has been thinking about you a lot lately, I don't know why, I always think about you but I limit myself to nice thoughts of you and lately the ones I try to push out have been creeping in.
I even listened to your funeral song for the first time in a long time the other day, I never let myself listen to that as it still upsets me so much, but for some reason I wanted to hear it, and yes, it did upset me.
My coping mechanism these days is to throw myself and my love into Ruby, and leave myself no time or energy for dwelling on the past, I won't ever forget you or stop thinking about the good memories, but I don't allow myself to go too deep, I haven't for a long time, so I don't know why I'm not doing too good at that lately! I think your Daddy is having more thoughts lately too.
Anyway, I just wanted you to know that I love you, and I miss you, and I am always in some way thinking about you sweetheart.
I hope you are happy when you look down on us now xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx