Hi Baby Girl,
Mummy loves you so much! Just in case you didn't know that :)
I've had such a hectic week, Daddy has been away fishing since last Thursday morning so I have been doing lots of sorting and clearing out at home after work trying to get ready for when your baby Sister comes along, and on Wednesday after the scan I went Christmas shopping and got lots of that out the way, I've only a few presents left to buy now then I'm done, and its still October!! (Just!)
I've never been so prepared for Christmas in my life, but I have to have it all done, wrapped and delivered before we go in to be induced as we definitely won't get chance in the two weeks after she comes! I suppose I could probably not deliver it all actually as everyone will be coming to visit us after the birth so I could hand them all out then and make it easier for myself :)
I'm very tired after such a busy week but I feel like I'm making progress now. I was hoping I might have had the wallpapering done in the kitchen and the wall in the lounge sealed this week while Daddy was away but the guy didn't come to quote or get back to me. I'll get it done in the next few weeks I'm sure but I was just hoping to surprise Daddy.
I picked Faye up from home this evening and we popped to Matalan on the way home and then had fish and chips for tea, and we both got our Coronation Street fix on plus one before bed! We're going to go and groom Kal in the morning and then Daddy will be home for around lunchtime. I'm really looking forward to seeing him, I've missed him so much! It feels like he has been away for a month! That's his last fishing trip up on the Tyne now though for this year as the season finished today, although I guess that doesn't mean he won't be going shooting up there or down at the caravan! He won't be away for so long again now though, especially not the closer we get to the end of our pregnancy, maybe just a night or two.
Daddy has missed my bump loads he says, I bet he'll be surprised by how much I have grown since he saw me! I'm really looking forward to a cuddle :)
Your baby Sister has been a bit quiet today which always worries me sick, although she has been very active the rest of the week while Daddy has been away, she must have known that I needed extra reassurance whilst I've been on my own. I just wish she wouldn't have these quiet spells at all but I guess she has to rest sometimes! I suppose it's only natural to worry after we lost you, I can't help it, this pregnancy has been very difficult at times. I'm so terrified of missing something and losing her too. I'm under such immense pressure to keep her safe, but the extra scans are helping, we are having them weekly now until the end.
Everything was fine on Wednesday and our Consultant was happy, she is transverse still at the moment which means she is lying sideways across my tummy, but she has plenty of time to turn yet. Our Consultant says she has a lot of water around her so she still has her own private swimming pool at the moment which is why she is constantly changing position! I don't mind just as long as she goes head down when she needs to! I read up on manually turning the baby last night and it worries me as there are risks attached to the procedure, I'm not sure I'd be happy to have it done, so I really hope she turns herself. At the end of the day though if I need to have a ceasarean section to get her out safely then so be it, whatever it takes. I can't believe it's only five weeks tomorrow now!
We should get our actual induction date at the next scan or the one after, as our Consultant is away for two weeks after that and wants it all booked in and the plan agreed upon before she goes, so we'll know what's happening and when in the next ten days or so. It will be so strange to know the date I think.
Anyway, I'm sorry if I talk about your baby Sister too much when I light your candles, but I'm sure you understand perfectly that she's such a huge part of our lives and I want you to know we're doing ok and looking forward to the future. We will always be sad that you are not with us sweetheart, but we know you would never want us to be miserable and that you would want us to go on and have more children and of course make the most of enjoying every second with them. You will never be replaced or forgotten, there'll always be a very special little girl missing and a hole in our family and in our hearts as a result.
Daddy and I love you so so much Baby Girl, as does Faye and everybody else who misses you and wishes you were here with us xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx