Hi Baby Girl,
Mummy and Daddy went for our 20 week scan on Wednesday, and we are so relieved to have been told that everything is going well and there are no problems at all.
They checked everything very carefully and they also checked specifically for where the cord has attached to the placenta because of what happened to you, and we were reassured that it has attached right in the middle where it should. They checked the blood flow through the cord too and it was fine.
We have another scan in four weeks and will continue at that consistency until we are induced unless they are worried about anything like the baby's growth, in which case they will increase the consistency of the scans to fortnightly or even weekly.
We talked about the induction and what will happen if it doesn't appear to be working etc, and we discussed the possibility of a ceasarean if needs be.
We were absolutely over the moon to be told we are expecting another little baby girl! We have both said we really don't mind what we have, but when it came to it and they were checking the sex we both realised just how much we really wanted and indeed to a certain degree needed it to be a girl.
There are so many things I have been robbed of that I should have been able to do with you, and there's a void there that could only be filled by going on to have another daughter.
That's not to say this baby girl will fix anything or make if all better, of course she won't, nothing can do that as nothing can bring you back, but she will help to fill that void.
We have decided on her name already, it was an easy choice, and we even had her middle name agreed within ten minutes of discussing it! I'm not going to write it on here though as we decided we would keep it to ourselves until she is born, at least that way some people get a surprise!
It feels so weird knowing it's a girl, any baby in my tummy has always been a baby or a bump or a fidget, it's never been an actual identity with a sex and a name before, you were always Bump until you were born and then you became Summer. It takes some getting used to knowing so much about your baby sister already! By the time she is born we will know when she's coming roughly, what she is, what she's called, and what weight she will be!
It seems a shame to have spoilt the last remaining surprise we would have had, but it also feels good to know and to be honest, I've had enough surprises where babies and births are concerned to last me a lifetime.
We felt we needed to know this time, to be prepared either way, and we felt the need to make it different somehow too so that history wasn't repeating itself too much, especially as the dates are all so close to our pregnancy with you.
I wanted Daddy to be able to bond more with the baby too, while it was still in my tummy, so that if God forbid anything bad happens he will have at least had that. I know how much my prenatal bond with you meant to me when we lost you, I hope Daddy will be able to have something similar now with this baby.
You must always remember though sweetheart that she will never ever replace you, nobody could ever take your place. No matter what void she fills in terms of dressing her in beautiful dresses or putting her hair in pigtails, or guiding her through love later on, you will always be missing, you will always be missed.
Daddy and I love you so so much Baby Girl, we always will xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx