Lit by Mummy, Daddy, Faye, Ruby & Emma-Rae xxxxx 25th December 2018
Merry Christmas to you Baby Girl. We hope you have had a lovely Christmas in Heaven, although we're pretty sure you came down to see us today!
We wish you could have spent the day with us, we'd have given anything to have all of our girls here. Sadly that's a Christmas wish that will never come true but we will never stop wishing it sweetheart.
I find myself wondering lately just who you would be now, you'd be nearly six years old! You'd have been such an amazing big sister I'm sure. Ruby and Emma-Rae are so different to one another, their characters are complete opposites, that it makes me wonder more and more which one of them you would have been like. I wish that I had had the chance to get to know you outside of my womb, I have so many questions about you that will go unanswered for the rest of my days. If I could spend just one day with you and ask them, see what you would look like now, find out who you are. That would mean the absolute world to me. Maybe one day I will actually see you in my dreams for real and get some answers that way. Maybe one day you will come and visit me, make yourself known and stay a while. I miss you so much sweetheart and I would give anything to be able to hold you in my arms again.
When Emma-Rae arrived it was like a part of you came with her, I can't explain it but I have felt closer to you somehow through her. Sometimes when I'm playing with her and we are having a particularly lovely moment something happens and I instantly have this connection to you. Is it possible that you came back with her? Even just a small part of you? Daddy feels it too, it's not just me. I like to think it's true but I guess I'll never know for certain.
Anyway, Happy Christmas to you, our beautiful little Angel. We love you more than words could ever say and miss you and think of you all the time xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx