Hello Sweetheart, Daddy is struggling today. I normally go through my days with blinkers but today its impossible to ignore the hollow pain I feel. Three years ago today we had to do the worst thing any parent or Daddy can do and that was to finally let you go. I'm reliving that pain today but somehow it makes me feel closer to you. At least it's us that has to feel that pain down here and you don't have to feel it. You're big and little sister make me so happy but sometimes my love for you and the pain of it overpowers all that. The love I feel for you is special somehow. It's a love that I'm sure only Daddys of angel daughters can feel. It's separate to all my other loves and seems to be in the air around me and somewhere inside me. It's so very tough to hold in. It's like having the best thing ever to give to someone you love but not being allowed to ever give it to them. I don’t write to you very often and I know you know why. Today I felt I had to and I do feel better for it. I love you so very very much. The words don't come close to describing the feeling but it's all I have. Speak to you soon angel, Daddy xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx