One year ago today was your due date Baby Girl. You weren't 'Baby Girl' back then though, we didn't know what you were so you were 'Bump'.
Life was still full of hope and excited anticipation, I can no longer remember how wonderful that felt. I had a blissful ignorance about me, a naivity that everything would be as it should. How wrong could I be?
I was still taking carrying you in my stride, still fit as a fiddle! Daddy and I went for a walk with Grandad Harry and Bob up the Cliffe, and I kept up with everybody and was so proud to have gotten to the top no problem that Daddy and I had our photo taken. I undid my jacket to proudly show off my due date bump!
I would give anything now to have had a terrible pregnancy and a healthy baby.
Today, a whole year on, I think about you with none of the hopes and dreams that I thought about you with back then, they have been shattered and can never be.
But I still think about you with pride Baby Girl, I am proud to have carried such a beautiful Daughter, proud to have been blessed with the opportunity to have met you, and so very proud to be your Mummy. Nobody can ever take that away from me.
I love you with every atom of my being sweetheart, and I miss you being in my tummy so much, while you were still in there, everything was still magical.
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